I hate to say it, but i've no friends watsoever. And in school no1 speaks to me... And my family...I'm the only child living with my dad. My dad is depressed and takes pills. He probably doesnt know that im suicidal, but he probably doesnt care. I don't hate him, but he has his own problems, and cant find a work. The only few times I'm bein talked to in school, r the times wher the others wont to bully sum1, and thats just me. I don't say anythin and try to laugh with, but can't bcos they laugh at me. I'm very quiet. Let me say this straight out... I've very bad self-worth, and thats probably bcos i havn't communicated with any1 4 so long time. I succeded to get sum net-contacts, wen i posted in another suicide forum... but thats unfortunately not good enough for me. Still no1 to talk to. To the school parties I go to, I look like a fool, and they r laughin at me... even the girls. A very bad experience. I can't live with this... and I still need to go an entire year of my high-school. I've not so good grades. I've never really been out in the city b4... never touched any of the youth life experiences, and never talked serious to any1 face-to-face. I think it's very depressing to be here, and hav no1 to talk to... and I don't enjoy life. I'd so much like to go out, but i've no1 to go with. havn't been to a cenema b4, and other places of joy, bcos i'd be a fool, if i'd go ther alone. And on the same time of bein lonely, i've catched a depression too,,, maybe those things have to do with each other... i dont know. i dont care im just a zero... and worth nothin in no1s eyes. I'm basicly just waitin to die... and we r all gonna sum time. and i dont wanna spend the rest of life in such a loneliness... so when no1 cares abt me, and i dont too, then i dont c the big problem in tiring a 30-kilo-iron to my foot and jump into the sea. i dont really need a suicide note, cos whos gonna read it anyway? It wud be less tragic, if i did it, than others from this site that have friends and family... bcos only 1 person will get affected if I did it... im sure others wud have at least 10-20 ppl to ur burrial.