Nobody Asked Me

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by CGMAngel, Mar 2, 2013.

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  1. CGMAngel

    CGMAngel Well-Known Member

    Nobody asked me if I wanted to be born.

    I didn’t.

    Nobody asked me if I was ready to grow up and face the world.

    I wasn’t.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted to be set free.

    I didn’t.

    Nobody asked me if I was in pain.

    I was.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted someone to take my hand and hold me safe.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I was afraid of morning.

    I was.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted Mummy and Daddy to stop fighting.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if the cruel taunts of bullies had forever shredded my soul.

    They had.

    Nobody asked me if, just once, instead of me saving the world, I wanted the world to save me.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I just wanted to be given the benefit of the doubt.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I ever felt completely alone and utterly petrified.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if my heart was irreparably broken when my beloved pets passed away.

    It was.

    Nobody asked me if I ever wanted someone to stay with me through the cold night.

    I did.

    Nobody ever asked me if I was tired of running away and hiding.

    I was.

    Nobody ever asked me if I was sad and alone, and just wanted to go home.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I felt betrayed by the face in the mirror.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I just wanted a nice girl to smile at me.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I longed to be accepted.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted someone else, for a change, to take control.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted someone else, for a change, to take responsibility.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I wanted to rewind the tape and start over.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if the humor and smiling face were just a tragic act to deceive.

    They were.

    Nobody asked me if I ever wanted to talk about myself.

    I did.

    Nobody asked me if I ever missed the sunshine of childhood innocence.

    I did.

    Nobody ever asked me if I wanted to die.

    I did.

    Nobody ever asked me if I truthfully DIDN’T want to die, but just wanted all the pain to stop.

    I did.

    I do.
     
  2. exkend

    exkend Well-Known Member

    Sounds like your very isolated.
     
  3. Much afraid

    Much afraid Well-Known Member

    Thank you for sharing this. You've eloquently shared deep feelings and longings. Thank you for being open and truthful about how you felt/feel.
    As I read your entry I felt you were unknowingly speaking for me. It is as if you've experienced the essence of my life. It is "Nobody's" loss for missing the opportunities to engage and truly get to know you and the answers to those unasked questions.
     
  4. blackbirdfly

    blackbirdfly Well-Known Member

    this is my first day on the forum, and i thank you so much for this. i've always held my emotions in check but when i read this i just let it all go all at once and i've been crying since. i needed this.
     
  5. jgh7

    jgh7 New Member

    that was beautifully written
     
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    :hug: for you. I agree-that was beautifully written, a great way to let out your thoughts/feelings. Keep opening up if you find it helps.
     
  7. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Sometimes if you don't let people in, they won't ask :hug:
     
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