I wish I was dead. I wish somebody could just press a pillow very hard against my face so that i stop breathing. I wish I would just stop breathing tonight. Or that my heart would stop beating. Nobody fucking cares for me...let alone like me or love me. My family is a piece of shit that tries to make me feel worse and worse and doesn't listen to my problems and always blame me. My friends don't care for me. Most people dislike me. Nobody values me. I don't know what it feels like to be valued or loved. I never experienced it. I think there is nothing good about me. I am just crying right now and i know i am not able to kill myself right now...because i dunno how..i can only pray for a heart attack. Maybe someone can PM where to get pills that kill you if you OD. It would be appreciated. I am making everything worse. It would be better for everyone i know if i'd only die. Because I'm a burden. If I died nobody would care anyway because nobody cherishes me.