Ive had a plan for a while. Ive been visiting the place . Ive been carring blades with me everywhere. Ive been very depressed. Ive had many life chamges and they were changes for the negative. And ive been off of my antidepressant for a month and my doc is impossible to get ahold of. I just cant fake this anymore. Ive been telling everyone in my treatment team. they dont seem to get it. Maybe ill just have to show them.