Nobody knows...

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Beautiful_Disaster_09, May 28, 2009.

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  1. Beautiful_Disaster_09

    Beautiful_Disaster_09 Well-Known Member

    Well this is my first time on this forum. It is a last resort really as I don't know where else to turn to. I have tried everywhere else to seek help but nobody cares enough to make me see that life is worth it.

    I am a seventeen year old girl living in England. Some would said that my childhood was okay but I say it was horrendous. I was abused at a young age and when I finally told people what was going on it torn my family apart. I was bullied for seven years of my school life which forces me to not trust people and get upset by the smallest things. My grandfather died six years ago and I miss him every day. The thing that makes it worse is that I never got to see him but he would send me and my siblings £2 (all he could afford!) at Christmas. That showed me love.

    Last year I was diagnosed with Depression. Since then I have had many thoughts of suicide and I have self harmed quite a bit. I also made myself sick and stopped eating a few times because I cannot stand the person I am.

    Recently my feelings of suicide are becoming stronger and there is nobody I can talk to about them. I have nearly lost my friends once and I don't want that to happen again. They have hurt me so much but I cannot tell them because they will think I am 'being silly'. I feel like I don't belong with them anymore, they don't accept me for who I am. They see the pain I am in and don't bother to ask if I am okay or ask me to tell them why. I am often left alone while they go out together and have their own private jokes etc etc.

    I don't know what else to do. I have all these feelings inside that are waiting to get out but there is nowhere to send them. I am thinking my last resort is suicide. I am screaming inside and nobody knows or cares. I ask for help and I don't get it. What am I supposed to do? When will enough be enough?
  2. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    You came to the right place. There are people that care and many of them are here. Sometimes you have to ask a few times till you find a place where you are heard and understood so please hang in there. You can contact me if you'd like.
  3. ~Claire

    ~Claire Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF Caroline.

    It can be scary signing up to a forum like this but it can also be a positive step.

    Many people here understand what you're going through & we will be here to listen to you & support you as best we can.

    Take care :hug: xx
  4. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    WELCOME TO SF! We care! There are many great people here and I'm sure you will find the support you need. Please continue to post and share when you feel up to it. Please do not become discouraged if your post drops down the board. Things move very quickly here.

    But I'm sure you will find some people with whom you can start a contacts and friends list. Also, most are very open to receiving private messages...I am one of those. Feel free to send me a private message to vent or discuss any issues you are comfortable with.

  5. here2help

    here2help New Member

    hi there, hey lets chat, im from England north london a place called chelmsford, you know it?
    i have only just signed up on here, as a few years back i lost my gf and a friend in a car crash and i was the only one to survive.. i feel soo much pain and would like to chat to people that feel the feelings i do, suicide doesnt appeal to me ill be honest because to me its gonna cause more pain to my family and friends, i just accepted that life is shité and nothing can be helped.
    feel free to talk to me, if not i wish you all the best of luck in life.
    Remember that there is always someone out there that can help.
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