I called my mom today. She couldn't talk to me because she was busy at horse show with another girl she considers her daughter...of course to friggin fill in the "void" I created in her life when I stopped competing... She demanded to know why I was calling her when she was busy with the other girl & the horses. I told her I just wanted to say hi because we hadn't talked since she got back from her trip & she was like "is that all?" & I was like "Ok, fine bye..". Its always about the horses & if I don't ride then she finds someone to replace me & she rubs it in. She pulls the cliche "Well so & so's daughter.." & I feel like shit. I'm falling apart & she cant give me aminute of her time because she's either too busy with the horses, her other "daughters" or work... This is family number 2 for me & this one is falling apart as well... I'm still living through family #1's disaster & I friggin am going insane. I see my parent's like less than once a week, & I spend 24/7 sitting in my apartment alone wishing it would all just end..