I don't want individual counseling anymore, I have tried it numerous times in the past and it always does more damage than good. I also do not want medication anymore. Same reason. Like most of you, I absolutely can't feel like this anymore. It comes and goes like clockwork now and it is extremely disruptive to my life. At least when I was younger my low times were more reactive and slower to start. Now I go from depressed to non-functioning in the blink of an eye and it is getting harder and harder to crawl out of. It destroys me. I can't make any progress in life. I think about suicide constantly and always have when I get like this. But I won't try individual therapy or drugs anymore. They were complete failures and I gave them multiple tries. Has anyone found or had any success with a group counseling environment? Please tell me about it. Someone out there get any non-traditional help????