Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by noshadow, Aug 12, 2008.

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  1. noshadow

    noshadow Well-Known Member

    I don't want to wake in the morning.
    I don't want to see another sunrise or sunset.

    I want to meet my fate, tonight, tomorrow morning.

    There's darkness in me
    there are wals around me i cannot break from.
    my insides are blowing up.

    I can no longer breathe
  2. noshadow

    noshadow Well-Known Member

    there's no scream in me left
    no more windows to break,
    No walls to punch....

    I'm left with the soundless noises of
    my goodbye.

    I'm tired,
    I'm bored, with nothing to look forward to
    I carry no worth, no reason
    and no other hand to hold mine.

    My forever is done.
    i am sad, and i don't want to cry anymore
    i don't want to rage out anymore
    but it won't stop,
    and i am tired now.
  3. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I hear alot of pain in your post noshadow. Do you know where the darkness is coming from? The anger? The rage? I am glad they may not be there anymore, but do not want you to scream in silence. Reach out and let us do what we can to support you. Maybe together we can find someting to look toward the future for. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:
  4. middleofnowhere

    middleofnowhere Well-Known Member

    You write profoundly. Your words clearly reveal pain and darkness. I wish I had written the words you use so eloquently. They express a sense of hopelessness, a sense of someone who is too tired, too used up to continue.

    Much of what you feel right now comes from the past. With some help, you could lay the past to rest so that you can regain your sense of worth and hope.

    As gentle lady said, tomorrow will be a new day, with new possibilities. I hope you will keep your heart and mind open to what might be.
  5. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hello Noshadow,
    Can you tell us where these thoughts are coming from? I know my therapist, my doctor, and the others in the hospital had me promise them that I wouldn't do anything without consulting them first.
    They kind of got me over a barrel because they know I won't lie to them. I try to be honest, I tried the lying but I only hurt myself. Why don't you call your therapist or your doctor and tell them you are in crisis! They will probably want you in the hospital to reevaluate you. It is nothing to fear, they only want to help. I know each time I go in the hospital I feel releif because I can't try to commit. I am safe there. Please don't try anything. You have friends here at the forum. We will offer support if you want it. Take Care and Stay Safe!!!!!
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