My support is gone. I finally told guidance counsulers at school that Kyle was suicidal... cuz he was today. And now I'm shaking because he's gonna hate me. He's my reason to live and now he's never gonna speak to me again. Oh my god. I'm at school right now... I'm freaking out... And I'm gonna get help too as long as I can tell my parents I need it. HA. As if. I'm gonna chicken out just like always... Someone help, I can't calm down.