My disclaimer: I haven't logged on for a long time and I understand that it's a bit selfish to expect a response...but perhaps someone is experiencing this. In brief, I lost my father to suicide 5 years ago and then my mother died suddenly of a thrombosis last year. In addition to what I call, my manageable grief I am experiencing escalating feelings of terror in relation to my own health. I cannot control it, especially at night. I am literally jumping out of bed in the middle of the night with clammy hands, sweating and my heart racing; convinced that something is terribly wrong. Obviously once you poke around enough you begin to convince yourself that something doesn't feel/look right. I am absolutely beyond mortified by this. I cannot stress enough that I am not feeding this problem it is coming from somewhere in my head and it is out of control.