For the past week I have found myself feeling very nostalgic for the country I grew up in. it’s like I wish to return to the past and relive parts of it. I do admit there were some nice parts; most Halloweens were good since it has always been my favorite time of year and there have been other good things as well. But by in large this desire to return makes no freaking sense. I hated that place. I hated the town I lived in and most of the people I know. There are still a few times throughout the year that I feel like killing those people! I should not be having nostalgia for a place I hated. Perhaps freezing my butt here out by Seattle and knowing the people back there are nice and warm with 90+ degree weather is what’s causing me to think this way. Perhaps now that I am older and more experienced I am now learning how to use more of my emotions. The emotions I am use to are primary hatred and anger. It wasn’t until I was out of high school till I really felt what being sad is like. I have rarely felt fear and happiness was not too common for me. Hatred or nothing at all were my normal mental states. This is most likely the case. I have noticed over the past few years I have become more emotional. I am more sympathetic than I once was. I am sad more often as well as happy. Fear is still not that common. Do you ever feel nostalgic for something you know you shouldn’t? I do not like this feeling.