So, not feeling at my best right now. And just want to vent a bit. My best friend, the only person who I have ever trusted with my secret (depression), is moving away for two months and tonight we went out to celebrate/say goodbye. However we went to a gay bar, and I being the only gay, was happy with this plan. The Straights could just dance the night away, and I could try to pull. This is not what happened. My best mate pulled a guy at a gay bar and I remain lonely. As per usual. So I'm feeling rather suicidal right now. Is that so wrong? Or is this just something else I need to feel bad (suicidal) about? After all, it was her going away party?