Not coping....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by IV2010, Jul 3, 2010.

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  1. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I rang the hospital today...Psyche see what happens if I present on their doorstep.....
    I'm in a bad way but I don't want to go to the hospital and I don't really want to get better.....
    I know all the advice because hypocritical me is always dishing it out to others on here.....
    those who know the reason I joined here will understand there is no solution to my problem....
    It just is.... and it will never go away...

    I just am ...I don't know what I will decide to do....
  2. mandyj101

    mandyj101 Well-Known Member

    Hey there..

    I have seen many of your posts around the forums since i have come back to SF.. you help alot of members.. and give some great advice..
    Its good you called the hospital.. shows you know what avenues might be beneficial for you right now.. maybe you can ask them for a home visit ?
    I dont know you situation.. but i really hope you begin to feel better soon..
    Take care :hug:
  3. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    I have no reason to stay anymore.....
  4. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    To be honest, a shrink would do you better.
    In a hospital, well at least from my experience, they will do nothing. Need pills? check Need Food and drinks check. They will take care of you in a "by the book kinda" way. But the staff will be too busy elsewhere to concentrate on your real problems. BUT your experience may differ. So i think you should give it a try. Afterall, if you go there voluntarily, you are allowed to leave when you want. At least in Canada it is..
  5. cownes

    cownes Well-Known Member

    Hun u have helped so many around here, and u didnt have to d that, but u chose to, so why not let us try and help u and support u through this hard time. You are amazing :hug: and have helped me out on many occasions
  6. Perfect Melancholy

    Perfect Melancholy SF Friend

    I will say this from the start we are here for you okay:hug: you are a good person you have helped so many here, i think this place this world would be a lot worse without you here that is the truth. Boo is right you need to maybe talk to a therapist talk through what is going on it is a massive step, but we are all behind you. If you need to be in hospital do that, do what you have to keep you here and alive and with us.

  7. Marty482

    Marty482 Well-Known Member

    PLEASE STAY. We need you . I just said aprayer for you and hope you pray too. You may helop me through a hopeles night. PLEASE stay. Others need you. Try to get help and see what happens. Years ago when I was a very young person I never thought things would get better. I was so lost. But GREAT things came eventually that made all the suffering worth it. That will happen to you. PLEASE hang on. Life is unpredictable. I PROMISE you that you will never know exaclty how it will work out. We all think we know ,but we don't. YOU are important and a good person. You have helped people here and that is such a good thing. YOU ARE A VERY GOOD PERSON. so many never try to help anyoneand you in spite of your own problems have helped. You should be proud. That is a the mark of a great person. YOU are needed more than you could believe.PLEASE I BEG YOU STAY. YOu havemy love and hope.

    Write me if you like,

  8. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    IV, I don't want to lose you :no:



    please, whatever it takes to be be safe.

    if you need the hospital please go, or stay here and stay connected with people here. :console:

    I know you hurt and i wish i knew how to ease your pain **hug**
  9. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    :hug: I know your problem won't go away hun. However, get help so you can live with it. I like you and know you are a good person. :hug: Those who do not want help do not come here or do not stay here like you do. We all want to get better.

    Do not give up hun. Go to the hospital, and get the help you deserve.
  10. Autumn01

    Autumn01 Well-Known Member

    This world would never be the same without you. :cry2:
    Please don't leave. You are more precious than gold.
    You've helped me so many times. You are truly special. You're an Angel hun. :hug:
  11. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thank you all for the advice....I took a pill and got some sleep but this morning isn't any better.....
    all I can see is the hospital will put me on meds, I will survive but it won't be living......
    I am old, tired ,worn out, alone and the lack of support here in real life after losing a child to suicide is becoming too much for me ....

    you are all so supportive and amazing but what I wouldn't give for a real hug and some compassion here 'in the flesh'........

    I've come to believe sometimes under certain circumstances there is no solution to a problem ...
  12. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Please don't go IV. You're such a nice person and help so many people on here. :hug:
  13. flowingriver

    flowingriver Well-Known Member

    IV, Marty is right. You will feel better again. You have helped so many people on here. We need you here. Things will get better again.
    We all love you on here.:heart::hugtackles:
  14. Marty482

    Marty482 Well-Known Member

    Thre is always a solution. It is in the problem itself. I just said aprayer for you and will continue to. PLEASE just stay with us and we will find the solution. The more I get to know you the more I like you. Youjust need to be around people more. Write out everything. We want to know and we want to help. As I also said we NEED you too.The world needs caring people like you. THERE IS A WAY OUT AND WE WILL FIND IT. Please come on the journey with us and we will find your happiness!!!!

    write me whenever you want,

  15. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thanks for the support....
    I've calmed down a bit at the moment.....
    I'm here for now.....
  16. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    If I could I would give you a big hug. :i'm sorry: I will always send my love and thoughts. Be safe.
  17. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey IV, I think you are a wonderful person and we have just become friends..You know you can always talk to me..It stays between us..Now I can't bethere to give you a hug but I can tell you your loved!!
  18. plates

    plates Well-Known Member

    I don't know what I could say to help, but I've always valued your thoughts and words here.

    I know what you mean about hospital- the standard of living can go right down being admitted for long.

    You could try and search for a counsellor who specialises in grief and might be able to offer you a more effective care-plan, rather than what an inpatient unit can do?

    You know what, whenever I read your posts I always got the idea that you had a lot of light/life in you, however old you are, and however worn out you feel- I always got the sense of huge inner strength from your words.

    If there's anything I can do to help- let me know but you do sound very alone dealing with what is on your shoulders, and building up a little support system can help a lot at times like these. :hug:
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  19. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    i love you IV :hug:
    Hope today is a little better :console:
  20. Autumn01

    Autumn01 Well-Known Member

    I'd give you a real hug if I could.
    I'm always alone too and know I always will be.
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