Not doing so good anyone live in pembrokeshire region of wales

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by asvt, Dec 12, 2008.

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  1. asvt

    asvt Well-Known Member

    I was looking for someone close by to meet up and socialise with i really wish i had a friend who truly understands depresson and suicide. I kinda have friends with the people i've gotten to know at the prince's trust programme i'm on but i don't socialise outside of that. As soon as i get home i'm just lock myself away in my room. I get along with these people but i just really wish i had a connection with someone i just always feel so alone. I ran out of meds because the woman who monitors my meds hasn't bothered sorting out the new perscription of higher dosage. so used my old perscription but haven't bothered taking them. I also don't drink but have recently started trying it to make myself feel better I drank a whole bottle of vodka last saturday alone in my room because it was my 20th birthday. how sad is that drinking alone in my room on my birthday. Anyway it tasted disgusting and at first i felt a little better but then i couldn't keep my head up, was falling all over the place, threw up 5 times and then passed out. I just feel worse all the time and just don't know what to do anymore, why do we all have this unwelcome dire need of self preservation it just delays the inevitable and prolongs the agony that is this unreturnable gift we call life.
     
  2. tendenCs_89

    tendenCs_89 Well-Known Member

    i dont live in wales, im in london, but i can relate to a lot of what you say, none of my few friends can relate to me or understand what im going through
    do you have msn? id liek to be youre friend, we can talk there :)
    alfie
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  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Asvt, I don't live in Wales but I am here if you need someone to talk to :hug: Feel free to add me to MSN.
     
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  4. asvt

    asvt Well-Known Member

    I actually went out last night with a few people from the prince's trust we went out to the pub at 1pm and didn't leave until about 1 or 2am. we were just drinking all day spent a load of money that i don't really have and was throwing up. Everyone was enjoying themselves but i had to put in on a bit to fit in and not be the miserable bugger. But on the inside all i could think was this is supposed to be the night everyone lives working all week to spend all their money on saturday night i just don't see what is so great about it. It just makes me realise how much i don't feel towards anything, how much i don't fit in and how much i don't belong here. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
     
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