I am feeling so trapped, and so sad. Today is not one of my good days. Today I am feeling like ending it all. I feel so trapped like there is no way out like I am never going to get anywhere. Things feel so final. Alot has happend this last week that has left me feeling alone, and very sad. I can't seem to find the words. I feel like the only way that things are going to get better is if I end it. I have notes written and a plan with enough meds to end it all. I don't know what to do. I saw my worker today and he wants me to call him tomorrow or friday and maybe see him if I need to. There is a part that is just saying hang on one more day, and when I see him give him all the meds that I have been stashing. That I need to hang on for my daughter and husband.But then there is this equally load part that is saying just finish it all ready. I feel so alone.