Not down. Not sad. Not depressed. Just ready to go.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by mlxjaded, Jul 25, 2010.

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  1. mlxjaded

    mlxjaded Well-Known Member

    Honestly, I am not sad right now.
    I just want to go.
    I'm ready.




    This is the song I want to die to.

    Breathe No More - Evanescence

    "Lie to me,
    Convince me that I've been sick forever.
    And all of this,
    Will make sense when I get better.
    But I know the difference,
    Between myself and my reflection.
    I just can't help but to wonder,
    Which of us do you love?
    So I bleed,
    I bleed.
    And I breathe,
    I breathe no...
    Bleed,
    I bleed.
    And I breathe,
    I breathe,
    I breathe,
    I breathe no more."
     
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  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    thats a deeper form of depression still need help okay
     
  3. Marty482

    Marty482 Well-Known Member

    PLEASE DONT HURT YOURSELF. Im praying for you. PLEASE STAY HERE
    WITH US. WE will help you and offer youi love and hope .PLEASE I BEG YOU Dont. We can turn things around ,just lets us know everything thats bothering you and we will find a way to change things and get you joy!!!! PLEASE STAY HERE WE NEED YOU AN LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU

    Write me.

    Marty
     
  4. nolonger

    nolonger Well-Known Member

    Please don't do anything bad jaded :(...I know that feeling.

    At times I welcome it, but I have to remember that it'll get me killed in the long run.

    Stay strong and safe! :hugtackles:

    Has anything got you feeling this way? Or is it just happening?(nothing usually triggers me, of course it depends though :laugh:)
     
  5. mlxjaded

    mlxjaded Well-Known Member

    Still here.
    I feel the same, though.
    Just waiting to go.

    I don't see why it's a huge deal.
    I am insignificant to everyone.
    I also know for a fact that if I were gone, my parents would be relieved.

    I'm just... pathetic.

    I don't deserve to live nor do I want to anymore.
    It's my life, why can't I decide when and how to end it?
     
  6. NobodyHome

    NobodyHome Member

    Although you CAN decide when and how to end your life, there's plenty of reason not to. Despite what I just posted, I kind of received a moment of clarity shortly afterward. And what I realized was that I'm different. You're different and we're all different. Yet somehow despite our differences look where we all are. On this forum helping each other out. I don't know you, or your situation, but I guess things always find away to work themselves out. Something I've lacked my entire life is faith and hope, and that's the only thing I resent about myself. Just have faith and hope that things get better, and if they don't then make it get better. Your life is just as valuable as anyone elses' regardless of what you're feeling or have been feeling. You do deserve to live, because we're all given life. It's up to you what you make of it though. I hope you're able to realize that this situation will only make you wiser and stronger. And that things eventually will turn out alright. If you wanna talk more just drop me a message.
     
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