I'm not like actively suicidal. more of just really really depressed, with suicidal thoughts lingering in the back of my mind I guess. I don't think I have the energy to act on anything right now, but it's been like this for the past few days, so im not sure where im headed. I'm getting bad again but I'm too tired to care. maybe this whole living thing just isn't for me.. I just don't know what to do anymore.