I feel im at rockbotom and cant go any lower. I feel worthless and useless. Ive been I feel im at rockbotom and cant go any lower. I feel worthless and useless. Ive been suicidal for a weekseriously suicidal for a week now.with the hope that my dr is starting me on a new med. I started having this new thing happen. My mind wanders but i dont know what it was thinking. Its like i daze out bbut then things are fuzzy. It kind of scares me. My therapist wants me to call my doc. He doesnt even know im suicidal. But he knows im cutting. Ive been trying to reach my doc for a week. I left a message yesterday saying it was urgent . He hasnt called. It only adds to my worthlessness .im not even worth a phone call. Why should i stay around when my own doc who i pay, cant even call me.