I don't know what is wrong with me tonight, i can't think, i just feel... horrible... a mixed bag of scared and i don't know??? The more i have been getting help, seeing a psychologist, cpn, consultant, 2 support workers ect the more i have been getting stressed out and snappy. It feels like... if anything else happens... i won't explode, it's different it's like something will brake up there! I can't explain... i don't like it, my mask won't go up, i can't pretend i'm ok round my kids! Dunno what to do with myself!