I dont know what to do anymore. I have to get another job. Which is fine. I like working very much! I find it incredibly theraputic, and I really would prefer to earn my own living as opposed to being on disability. I'm sick and tired of being on assistance programs. I'm grateful they're there don't get me wrong, but it's always rubbed me the wrong way to be on them. Here's the problem I'm having with all this. I'm now on probation (which kills a backround check) for a crime I didn't knowingly comitt. I was just as much a victim as the one who filed the charges. The guy who did this to me is now dead too. I'm sick and tired of corporate jobs (meaning working for corporations). Their employees mean nothing to them. The little guys doing all the actual labor get paid crap wages too. I was at my last job for 6yrs and still wasnt getting paid squat for all I was doing. New guys were getting hired at wages higher than I was making after being there for that long. I need to make more money if I'm going to get all my bills paid. I have an outstanding school loan I'd like to pay and need to pay so I could consider that route. Plus I have a learning disability they say, and my memory isn't the greatest since having received so many (about 60) ECT treatments. I'm stuck with crap jobs making crap wages, but inside I feel like my potential is far better, but here I sit. I'm discouraged as crap. I want to believe I can do so much more, but reality has dealt me a far different hand. Suicide is a serious consideration at this point!