Hi all, first post I'm just curious as to whether there is anyone else here that is so overwhelmed by the boredom of life that they wish to escape it through death. I've never had a hobby; not for lack of trying. I don't like sport, however I have tried: badminton, soccer, tennis, swimming, lifting, rugby, gymnastics. I'm also not interested in music, although I have learned to play the guitar, piano and flute. I'm very intelligent and get straight A's in school. In a few months I'll be going to university, but I don't want to study anything. I have no interest in any of my subjects, I'm just naturally capable and study the bare minimum required to shut my parents up. In the last few years I've gone through 4 different groups of friends. I understand that normal people enjoy social interaction, but I don't see the point. It's really just a matter of convenience to have people close to me, so I'm not the "weird loner" in school. After a few months, I always get sick of these people to the extent that I just have to ignore them and move on. I used to play video games when I was much younger, but have no interest in them now. I've also tried a number of different drugs, mainly psychedelics and stimulants, but even they were just momentary breaks from the oppressive monotony of life. I sometimes feel as if life is completely devoid of meaning, but at the same time, I'm not looking for a purpose. The way I see it, humans are not supposed to ask certain questions of the world, or it effectively breaks them How can anyone justify living? I mean seriously, think of the simplest problem you could ever encounter; the best solution will always be suicide. It's much easier to kill oneself than to complete a cross word puzzle, learn a language, or any other task that one is asked to complete. I often hear the phrase "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I believe it should be amended to read: "Suicide is a permanent solution to every problem that you could ever encounter." Both are true, however one contradicts the inherent survival instinct that we all depend upon. tl;dr I'm not an emo, I'm not some depressed spawn of a loveless marriage crying for help. I am a legal adult that has decided he wants nothing from life and was merely curious as to how other peple feel about this.