Not like anyone is going to see this

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ASkylitDrive, Mar 10, 2010.

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  1. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    But I'm done. I've given up. I'm gunna attempt again. This time I'm determined it will work.
    Sorry
    Love you guys.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    If youluv us guys you would stay and talk things out you would not bring this kind of pain on your friends. Lots of support here go back to chat and talk to someone who can help you phone crisis you just need someone to care. I care.
     
  3. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Why so soon.
     
  4. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    I can't.
    I'm a very spiritual person..and I feel like my spirit left days ago.
    Sorry, I can't go on
     
  5. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    I'm gunna eat first, because all this is making me sick to my stomach and I want to feel physically better before I do anything.
     
  6. nagisa

    nagisa Chat & Forum Buddy Staff Alumni

    You don't have to do this. :( You can PM me to talk if you want. :(
     
  7. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    Well this is it. None of my friends saw or commented this thread.
    Shows how much they care.
    Well brandon did..thanks..Love you
    Bye guys.
    Have wonderful lives.
     
  8. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    you didn't do it, did you?
     
  9. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    Not yet..I'm too deep in thought
    And waiting for my dad to go to sleep
    So about 20 minutes now.
     
  10. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    how about you just go to sleep? maybe you'll feel better in the morning.. and if not, you can always do it then
     
  11. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    I've been sleeping all day. Didn't go to school.
     
  12. CloudCatching

    CloudCatching Well-Known Member

    If you're still posting regardless of waiting for your dad to go to sleep you might still be having second thoughts.

    Are you positively sure this is what you want to do, because people are going to miss you and you could be making some of your friends terribly sad after it's over. :/
     
  13. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    The only thing I'm regretting is leaving David.
     
  14. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    what brought this on? if it was just a trigger, go for a walk or something to calm down... or just vent it out on here
     
  15. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    I've been upset for a very very long time.
    I feel like I'm only getting worse from here.
    I was calm for a while, able to keep control, then last night I broke and cut myself.
    Now I just feel numb but miserable.
    I miss my life..and I hope I get a better second one.
     
  16. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    we only got one life, bro.. it's this or nothing.
    you were able to keep control before, you just lost it.. but you can get it back.. you might just be in a slump, that happens from time to time. give it a few days, man, you could start feeling better. and like I said, if you don't feel any better you'll always be able to do 'it' later on.
     
  17. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    I don't know if I can survive mentally.
    I'm literally going insane.
     
  18. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    well that's the thing- you don't know and are unsure, but there is the possibility you can survive mentally...
    if you do it now, you'll have no second chances. it will be over...
    if you give it a few days, you have the chance to feel better and the option of suicide is still there if you want it. it may just be delaying the inevitable but at least you'll be sure
     
  19. ASkylitDrive

    ASkylitDrive Well-Known Member

    But I've waited years.
    Why keep waiting?
    I've already tried multiple times..even jumped in front of traffic.
    I think I know that I want it to work.
     
  20. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    you should count those multiple times as being lucky. it's a good thing they were failed attempts, right?
    all i can think to say is think about your dad and about him finding your body when he wakes up. if you imagine that, i'm sure you'll start having second thoughts.
     
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