Feel as if I am "numbing out", feel like a zombie. But I can still feel the sad in me. I don't want to live, ya know. And it's not like a "teenage angst" thing. I don't want to live in a world where people are killing people for who they are. I don't want to live in a world where I feel sooo fucking alone. In a world where I go un-noticed. I just need someone to understand. I don't know what I was meant to do here. I never wanted to die a nobody..... I cannot find ONE thing to cause me to WANT to live. Not even my music. I feel guilt for wanting death sooo bad. I don't want to hurt those who do love me....those I love. But I just can't live like this....I don't want to be fucked up. I don't want to live this painfull and pointless routine.......I NEED for this earth to REALEASE ME.