Sometimes from a few people I know, I've heard them say "maybe you just aren't meant for the world." It never bothered me for a long time until I thought about it. And realized that maybe they're right, perhaps I am better off in a psychiatric hospital somewhere (psychcologists have to earn money too right?). What do I have to give this world? I know that it's only a matter of time before something horrible happens and I end up dead or in prison for the rest of my life, and most of the people in my life know it. So, with this in mind, why not fix the proplem before it occurs? I don't think it would be a bad thing, I'm tired of people and their constant struggle to superior to others. I know not all people are like this (not many though), but it gets old after about 18 years, thus, death would be a mercy and blessing. I see no hope of the human race anymore. Anyway, I guess it's what I've always wanted, isolation. Just john and his thoughts, it seems those are the only times I'm relaxed and content, I don't mind a conversation every now and then. But for the most part I just want to be left alone, is that too much ask for in life?