Especially my will to continue. My family has split and severed. I'm about to lose my motor home and become homeless. I am facing battery domestic violence charges, for trying to stop my wife of 33 years from killing herself. She's only tried over a dozen times to do so. My poor son had to witness his mother lose touch with sanity, accuse me wrongly, attack me, then have me arrested. First trouble I've ever been in, in my 50 yes of life. And I lost my job, car, home, and my beloved pet too. All in an instant. My wife is over. Daughter disowned and attacked me socially in our small town. Slaughtered my reputation. I just want to run far away ... And can't begin to. But worse thing is, I sleep with a NECESSARY sleep machine at night. Can NOT sleep without it AT ALL. So is homeless an option for me ? Looks like only death left. I am so very broken and empty. All I ever wanted and held dear is gone. Today, nothing's sharper than the blade in my pocket. Nothing duller than my will to live on.