i think i need help. i feel so down that i have planned my suicide and the more i think about it the more i see the people who are keeping me here. i love someone in my class at school but she doesnt know and i think that i would lose her as a friend if i did tell her. i keep thinking that i cant carry on anymore and i just want to die so that i can be free. i feel so selfish for thinking it but cant help wonder if my friends and family would be better off without me.