I know a lot of people have found refuge and lots of help on this forum and I'm nothing but really happy for them. But I've been here for so long and really haven't gotten any help, maybe just sometimes a quick dose of my depression going away and thats it. Well, I'm pretty sure I'm partly to blame, I don't quite feel like getting help since I feel so hopeless about my future and my life, I dunno, you all will say that there is hope for me, hope for everyone, I hope thats true. I wish there was a way to completely tell you guys why I think about killing myself and why I am such a loser and inferior to everyone. I keep repeatng the same crap over and over again and don't get much out of it, I'm like a broken record.