Hi, Im not a new member really, but it's been so long since ive been on here i thought i would introduce myself again. Ive been struggling with severe depression for years, ever since i was about 12 i think. Im now 26 and been through some very dark times. I have been through therapy and been on medication but there has been little effect. I still get very low no matter what I try. Suicidal thoughts often creep up on me and before i know it im ready to do whatever i can to get rid of the bad feelings, i dont even know where they come from so how can i work out what to do about it? I isolate myself from friends and family and then feel I cant talk to them when i need to because i feel guilty about ignoring them. Life for me at the moment is just one huge struggle. Im starting a degree in psychology soon so maybe i can find answers there. Im grabbing hold of everything i can to stay afloat but sometimes the rock is too heavy and i get too tired to keep battling it.