It seems i cannot have any peace fromthe anxiety i am under my daughter calls crying upset anxious wants me to drive 2 hrs up to see her. I am told not to by her father as she needs to grow up. I want to so badly go up and take away her fears. My twin on the other hand has not called me since i did not visit her last monday when i was in Guelph I fear she has none something and no one has told me. I wish she would call so i know she has not OD or hurt herself. I wish I knew how to help them both i just don't know what to do anymore just want them to know i want to help them i do but im so messed up i want to be there god why can't life be easier Why can't they see what there cries do to me. I want them both home with me so i can protect them but am told no it is not what they need. I need to know they are safe god please why can't anyone see this seperatiion from both of them is killing me and them we need to be together.