Hello, for those who know me from all my other postings, you know I have a chronic issue with suicide. I received an e-mail from the American Association of Suicidology encouraging that survivors of suicide attempts to participate in a support group just for people and their families who have dealt with suicide in one way or another. Well, I was excited to want to participate, but then I started feeling urges to kill myself again. I clearly was not ready to share about it and I was triggered by the subject and now, I'm dealing with suicidal ideations again. I am safe right now because I have nothing in my apartment that I could really harm or kill myself with, (at least not that I can think of). I just wish that I was successful in my last attempt so I don't have to deal with these raw emotions and strong flashbacks causing me great anxiety, fear, and sadness. What should I do?