Maybe this belongs in another forum- if so, sorry and please feel free to move it. I came to this board because obviously I've been having some dark thoughts lately. Like anyone else I've felt like dying before but this is the first time I've been in a situation like this. It's safe to say that I'm going through a pretty serious depression. I've been depressed before, but it's always been characterized by feelings of sadness, and now I just feel sort of numb. And my thoughts around ending it for myself are different too. I'm much more calculating about it- basically I've decided that I will take care of all the obligations I have right now, and then I'm out. And where before such thoughts came as a possible solution to end this pain, this time it just feels like the most logical thing for me to do right now given what I have to offer versus what I'm taking from the world around me. So it's weird. I'm very unafraid- I feel hopeless and yet very much in my right mind. Can anyone else speak to this? I can't seem to talk to anyone about the state I'm in because I can't find a way to respond to the assurances of 'things will get better, you're just sad, lots of people have it worse'.