It's been a really long time since I felt like this. I get low the same as everyone else here and I live with the constant "I can't see the point in continuing" chant that circles my head: You don't have a future, You are impossible to love, You will always be alone, Everybody leaves, You are worthless, You are beyond redemption You might as well quit. I deal with it, if not well, then at least adequately on a day to day basis. Today I don't know what to do. I don't really think that actually I can do this anymore. I am not one for the "this is it" dramatics. I don't like to try to explain it all because trying to rationalise to people feels too much like attention seeking and I am conscious that other people, especially here, have enough to deal with without having to formulate a response to something that no doubt sounds utterly self involved and self pitying. As of right now I genuinely cannot think of one single reason not to just throw the towel in. The thing I have clung to before has always been "you will hurt people" but I am reaching the conclusion that the few that will feel anything at all will predominantly feel relief. It would be so easy. And it would stop me from inflicting myself on people who deserve so much better. I think it is the best thing for everyone?