I want to die, life has lost its luster. The only thing keeping me going is my family. (I wouldn't want to put them through the pain) I don't really know why I am depressed. It might be multiple reasons. I didn't recently go through a rough break up with my girlfriend of two years. It might just be that I am young (19) but in my defense, I look around and see that I am much more mature than most guys my age. So yeah I don't need to hear stuff that I already know like "killing myself won't solve anything." Cause it will, I won't have to suffer what I am going though. We broke up nearly 7 months ago, so I have been feeling down for quite sometime. Thats why I am having thoughts of suicide. I have been trying to lean on family for support. But I don't really connect with people easily, so the are of little help right now. I feel really alone, I just made the move from Georgia, US to Alberta, Ca. I was hoping it would help. It kind of did but I just feel unattractive, uninteresting, just really low in general. I don't know what I need, I figured I would just start somewhere so here I am. I scared myself on Saturday when I came close to driving into oncoming traffic. The thoughts of dying are becoming stronger, and I am become less fearful of dying. Help me? if there is still hope.