Why do bad things keep happpening, i shouldn't be alive, this is why I should be dead because this is what was gfoing to happen. the moment i turned 30 things got worse. this is why i knew i shouldn't be alive, someone something was trying to tell me to die before I turned 30. last saturday i was raped. this friday in my own houes, 3 men came in and raped me, left but only to come back with 2 other guys and 2 girls and beat me up. the police are involved but i don't want them involved they know where i live and will come back. i'm not safe in the house anymore ewither. i want to die, i want to kill myself, i want to cut and cut and cut until i die from bleeding. i want to die i don't feel safe. i won't ever be safe.