Not SH'ing was never an option.

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Green.Triceratops, Apr 20, 2011.

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  1. Green.Triceratops

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    Gave in. Didnt feel like it really, i was just mad that when i wanted to the other day i couldnt. So I made up for it. It felt really good....mostly. I couldnt just not do it. That was never an option.

    I usually dont get the adrenaline rush from it but tonight i did, my hands were shaking so i had to stop occasionaly and calm down enough to go again.

    Needless to say i did it more times than id planned. And i'm strangely happy about it. Because i didnt give in to the physical pain, just powered through it.

    Soo i guess im... Ashamed that it happened...but happy that i did it. And i know someone will see the scars eventually but thats a day far in the future i hope.
     
  2. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    i'm sorry you gave in, but i totally understand. just wanted you to know that.
     
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