I just feel really nervous... like a future is quickly approaching that is awful and worse than the present. I still feel like I should commit suicide. I have always wondered what the world would be like without me in it. I just wrote this kind of pathetic little e-mail to someone and I probably shouldn't have. They shouldn't have to hear about my stupid little problems. :sad: I wish I could say I am feeling better and I wish that everyone on this forum would feel better too. It's mostly just a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach... I think it might be more emotional than anything physical though. :ill: I might have said I don't regret not killing myself but I don't know if that is true anymore. Unfortunately I have met someone that I can't bear the thought of hurting by committing suicide. I would have to do it so he wouldn't find out. If you have been reading my posts you might know the details of who he is.