This will be an honest post. No sugarcoating, no religion, no unnecessary optimism. I'm not suicidal anymore, and maybe my story can help some of you. I first posted on this forum several years ago (under a different username). I was in high school. I had no friends and I was bullied relentlessly. I had health problems (I won't care to elaborate). I could never sleep, and I was convinced I was losing my sanity. I planned several ways to kill myself. A couple years later, I'm still friendless. I've never had a girlfriend or a job. I still have a hard time talking to people. The reality is life sucks, always has, and always will. It's a struggle for survival. This is true for every species on this planet, why should it be different for humans? We're animals, too. Most people need to lower their expectations, and realize how good they have it compared to others. Imagine starving in some rotten third world country. You're on the Internet. People weaker than you have made it through far more difficult situations. There are a couple good moments here and there, but most of our time is drudgery. Work and school. What's the point? The point is you're an organism on this planet with a built-in will to survive, that very few people can overcome. The point is your future has the possibility to be better than your past. Stop moping around, chin up, and deal with your problems the best you can. Once you've done your best to fix a problem you have, say "f*** it" and move on to whatever else is bugging you. If you can learn to persevere, you can put any weakness behind you and improve your situation. Your life might still suck at the end. Mine does at the moment. But it's something, it's all you've got. As far as I'm concerned, it is the only consciousness we ever experience. I don't care what any spiritual people say, this is the only reality with solid proof of existence. Might as well make the best of it. And if anyone gets in your way, you need to develop an aggressive mentality. Stop being their bitch. Stop being a trash can for them to dump their insecurities. Stop being passive aggressive, and be aggressive. Other people can be real scumbags, but once you show you won't be intimidated, they will most likely back down. If they don't, force them. If you fail in the process, at least you tried. Do whatever it takes to get them off your back.