I had a phone call today with the news that my rapist is now not due for parole till next april and i'm not sure how to feel. I feel glad that he will be behind bars for longer but also nervous at the fact that all the bad feelings i have had lately will arise again next year. I'm not sure how many times i can go through those feelings as each time they are worse and one day i won't be able to cope no matter how hard i try and my world will fall apart completely.