Let me tell you a little about my life first... I'm 19 and I grew up in a home with parents who had me at 19-20 years old. They fought everyday, screaming. Never hit each other from what I've known. So it wasn't terrible... but it has put some lasting memories in my head. Over the years my mom has ran down my dad -they are still married- and made him out to be the bad guy. I would start dating someone and she would pin point the negative things about them and say "I dont know how you deal with this" and keep on annddd on like she was trying to get me to leave them. Eventually I would, but it was never on my terms... it was because she'd nag me about how bad they were. So I met my -now- husband online in February 2009. He was in the military 2,200 miles away. I decided to fly out to see him in Mid-March. We fell in love very quickly... and he wasn't a high ranker were he could of afforded a place without me working for a while. So we decided to get married. Yes it wasnt the wisest and most mature choice to make, we've both admitted that. But it was really the only way we would be close and make it work. We barely knew each other, we just knew that we wanted to make this work. So we did. My mom had found that he had made a hidden myspace that I didn't know about to talk to an old friend of his, who happened to be a girl. This was like 10 months after we were married. Well he had been talking to a few of his female friends every so often for a little while without me knowing, because he knew I would be mad. Which I was... it almost caused a divorce that he hid it from me. So we went and got help, he realized his wrongs, and I realized I wasn't the easiest person to deal with sometimes. We had a very rocky relationship things were going fine then realization hit. We didnt know how to talk, we weren't even friends with each other half of the time. So he's apologized 100 times, and I took my time to trust him again, and we have been working things out. Things have been a lot better. Well he got out of the military because of a medical problem and we decided to move back to my home town. My mom was just so excited and so happy... We move in for a bit because my husband was trying to find work, so we could a place and it hasnt been going so fast. Well 2 months later he found a great job in an awesome coming for a temp-to-hire. He's definitely going to get hired in. So he's making average pay right now and we can afford a place. My mom has just been hell to deal with. She's pulling her 'point out every negative thing about someone' thing again. She has a problem with everrrrry little thing my husband does. She got pissed because she mentioned a vacation for just the weekend when my dad was off, that she wanted us to go. Well my husband normally works M-Thurs and Friday-Sun is volunteer. But to get hired in they kind of want you to show your effort, so he said he doesn't want to turn down if his supervisor asks him to work fridays. So my husband told my mom "well I dont know if I can, if they want me to work, I have to be there, I want to get in" she gets all pissed and stomps her way upstairs. Comes back down and chews my husband out calling him a "bullshitter" everything, saying he "fucked my daughter over"... she keeps bringing that up! My dad's had to come home from work and straighten the problems out it's gotten so bad. We don't know what else will make her happy. It's just every day and the stress gets put on me. We're trying so hard to move out quickly and get our place but we dont want to move too quick and pick the wrong place and be even more unhappy. She nags me, she gets an attitude where it's like 'feel bad for me', then when you do she gets even worse of an attitude. I don't know what else to do. My dads been talking to me about him wanting to leave her, but he doesnt want my little brother stuck with her, because shes suppose to be homeschooling him and all he does is stay up until 6 am and play games all day and night, and hes 10!!! I don't know what else to do, she sits there and says she doesn't trust my husband, and it's hard because I trust my mom, and I want to take her word... but she also assumes things about people more than normal. She honestly needs help. I'm just getting tired out, I'm 19 and the problems she has with my husband are either OUR personal business or just a guy things, like forgetting to do something or picking up something small. I'm just tired of being treated the way she treats me like this. I'm afraid to even be around her because I dont want to hear her negativity all the time. I have anxiety and I was doing much better when I didnt live around this area, because I wasnt around her! Now it's so bad that I'm scared to even hear what she has to say. My trich has gotten worse. I'm just so stressed. ADDED: My whole point being, my mom is very negative with everything, not just him. I've been dealing with hearing it everyday, all day, my whole life. I have thought about ending my life a lot lately... and I don't want to... but I feel like this is the only way I can get away from these problems. I wouldn't have to worry about being betrayed by a guy again, I wouldn't have to worry about my mom on my ass all the time, I wouldnt have to worry about anything anymore. I'm not a very religious person, but I pray sometimes... and I've been praying everyday lately and nothing is getting better at all. I don't feel better. Only time I feel better is when I'm talking to my dad, or when my husband and I leave the house for a while. Then that doesn't last, he has to go to bed early. I'm just so scared. I don't know what to do. I can't keep feeling like this. I want to go get help so I can talk to a professional, but I cant afford that.