I'm pretty much alone in the world, for me friends don't come and go, they just casually float by and leave over the horizon. I feel like crap near enough 24/7 and I've had enough. The people I care about most don't even respect me and for the people I don't so much, I'm more of a court jester. If things weren't bad enough in this circumstantial existence I'm every day fighting with something like or similar to anorexia that doubles my daily stress and adds to an already insufferable depression. For a long time, I'd just want to cut, make myself bleed, but now it won't suffice. Death has often been an unconsidered option, but now, it is more of a favourable one and I just don't want to be like this anymore; don't want to be alive anymore.