I have always been moody growing up but when I was around 14 was when I started to feel really down. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15 by my psychologist who I saw until over a year ago. I have improved but I still feel down because I fear being unhappy and I fear that I will be alone,unhappy and ultimately unsatisfied. I lack energy and don't enjoy doing things like I used to. I find myself not doing things and not enjoying myself when I do things. I have been taking lexapro since I was 15 but I'm not sure if it is working. The therapist I am seeing now believes that may be the problem as well. She has arranged me to see a nurse practitioner to monitor my dosage level and determine whether I should stay on lexapro or be on something else. I fear that it won't matter and that I won't be able to get over this. I am tired of feeling this way and I just want to put this behind me. Anyone have any ideas about how to get through this or what they did?