I want to die. I Know I do. I know if I let myself I would do it. But I won't. I attempted almost 3 months ago, and since then i've got better, with the help of my boyfriend. The thing is, my boyfriend is pretty unstable himself. I found out today he's being admitted to a psychiatric ward. He's attempted suicide 4 times in the past, and they think he's at a big risk of doing it again. I know he clearly needs help, but i don't think this is the best way. he's been in one before, for 2 weeks, and hated it. This is for much longer. For months. I don't know how i'm going to cope. He's the only reason I'm still alive. I don't know how i'm going to cope knowing I can't be there to help him I don't know how i'm going to cope not knowing how he his. I don't know how i'm going to cope not being able to talk to him everyday. I don't know how i'm going to cope not having the only person who understands me, and who i can talk to. I'm determined to stay though, for him. Just it's going to be so hard. I guess this is a crisis. I know my self harm is going to get worse. i know it's all going to get worse... Does anyone have any better ways to cope with this?