All my life has been for the last three months is just maintaining. I mean, considering how the start of this year went ( really bad) that is okay, but mainitaining is not really good in the long run. I feel like I am so unsure about my life still. I mean I'm not constantly suicidal, but just feel like my life has nothing good to look forward. And then there is so many things I want to catch up on and that's overwhelming. I'm sorry if none of this makes sense, but I'm kind of on a time schedule....yet another problem I'm dealing with.