Hi, I am new here and so not sure of anything anymore. Have been fighting this depression off and on for about 8 years now and each time I go through a cycle it seems to get harder and harder. Tried to overdose several times and was always dissapointed when I was unsucessful. It just seems like this black hole I am in is getting bigger and bigger and I cannot seem to find my way out. I feel like no one around me understands me and I am so sick and tired of people asking me what wrong with me!! The couple of times I did tell someone how I was feeling they pretty much told me to get over myself and that I was just feeling sorry for myself. Well, truth be known I am not feeling sorry for myself. If I could feel anything at all anymore maybe I could feel sorry for myself but all i feel is numb. Am too tired and empty to feel anything else. I just dont know what to do anymore. I just want it all to end.