Hi all, I've been put in a bad situation in the few months and unsure what do do. Basically, as it stands now, I have no family and am completely alone. I'm 26 years old with no money and a tremendous amount of debt from student loans (150k) My mother passed away from cancer about 4 months ago. My father is an absolute wreck, using drugs and alchohol. He was abusive to my mother 2 brothers and myself. One of my brothers whom I was very close with committed suicide in 2009. I miss him dearly as well. My father has disowned me, and placed restraining orders on me so that I cannot talk or visit with him.He has also taken me out of his will. I have one brother that is worthless and could care less about anyone but himself. He won't even answer my phone calls or emails when I need someone to speak with. With that said, I have no family, nobody I can turn to for help or advice when I need it most. I have a few friends that have helped me, but I'm afraid I have worn my welcome with many of them. I have been extremely depressed because of all that has happened. One year ago, I had a perfectly normal life with a loving family (my mom) and everything seemed to be ok. Now it is exactly the opposite. I am emotionally, physically, and financally distressed in a manner that is unbelievable. I have lost my job because I was no longer able to perform due to extreme anxiety and depression. I also have some serious physical health problems that I won't go into now. I don't have a girlfriend, never had a serious relationship. I am shy with women and very impatient. I just feel like the world has turned on me. I have nothing but grief in my life now. nothing to be happy about. If i wasn't for the few friends I have, I would have taken on my own life a long time ago. I'm just heartbroken about everything that has happened and I don't know if I have the strength to pick up the pieces and move on.