Hi, some of you might know me from chat over the last few days, I guess it's time for a little introduction. My name is Ulrike, I'm 22 and a male-to-female transgender. I currently live with my parents and am currently unemployed. About 3 weeks ago I was officially laid off from the bank I worked at due to my position not being retained after a merger so I'm pretty much left without any sort of cash income and if my parents find out that I'm on hormones chances are they would kick me out. The few friends I have have more or less abandoned me because they didn't like that I'm depressed from losing my job and the risk of getting kicked out. Honestly I don't have much left and don't know what to do. Suicide has been in my mind almost constantly for the last week at least, though I don't think I'm ready to commit to doing it. I haven't wanted to get out of bed because I didn't have a reason to. It's slowly starting to feel like it's the only option I've got anymore due to the area I live in which is considerably intolerant of anyone that don't fit in their definition of "normal". I would move away but I don't have any money to do so with since all of the severance money I got has to go toward a car loan and college loans for a degree I never complete. I just wish I still had someone to talk to about everything. It hurts that someone I always saw as my best friend would throw me away as soon as I was no longer a benefit to her and needed her help.