So for the past few weeks ive started to have urges to cut again and the last time I cut was in August of last year. But this past week I have been having suicidal thoughts and those I haven't had since I was in high school. I am not so sure why this is all happening again. Like, I've been having relationship issues with my girlfriend and we both mutually decided to end it last night because there isn't much we can both do at the moment. We both talked and said we aren't going to look for anyone new and we might get back together. I feel okay with that but there's another reason why all of these things are happening again. It can't be just that but I can't figure out what it is. Like, last night I was trying to fall asleep and suicide just popped in my mind and it kept me awake for another hour. My urges to cut have been the strongest ever and I am doing everything I possibly can to distract myself but I feel like I am on the edge and just want to give in because I miss it so much.