not sure what to do. I have lost everything, any little meaning or goodness about life i don't even care about it. I just don't think i can recover. I just don't have any way to end it. I'm trying to think of some, i just need all this pain to go away. I spent my whole life fighting for something that didn't matter in the end. And i was hurt physically and emotionally. And i fought, but it proved life is meaningless. When i find a way to do it i will end it when i'm ready.