Been having really intense mood swings the past few days. My grandmother's funeral was about 9 days ago, and her passing didn't even phase me. What did phase me was how f***ing horrible my family is. My parents shoved religion down my throat, my sisters fought like cats, and my uncle acted like the most obnoxious jerk possible. If anything, what the funeral did was crush the rest of the hope I had for ever having a family. It's just the most recent disappointment in a long line of them, and I'm really, really tired of disappointment in this life.