I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I dont really like eating, I love food and the taste of it, but I always feel terrible after eating. I feel sick I guess, and I just feel disgusting.
I can go a couple of days without eating, and I guess I like the fact that I can do that and so I feel hungry. I like that feeling as it is something to focus on which I can control, rather than the feelings inside which I cant control.
When I do eat I can have a massive binge, as I know that whether I were to eat some toast or a massive meal and loads of sweets/choc then I will rubbish afterwards either way.
So I guess I dont know whether I do this as a way of self harm? Or is it an eating disorder? Maybe both...
I can go a couple of days without eating, and I guess I like the fact that I can do that and so I feel hungry. I like that feeling as it is something to focus on which I can control, rather than the feelings inside which I cant control.
When I do eat I can have a massive binge, as I know that whether I were to eat some toast or a massive meal and loads of sweets/choc then I will rubbish afterwards either way.
So I guess I dont know whether I do this as a way of self harm? Or is it an eating disorder? Maybe both...